Cheng
if i type an emo post please don't blame me.
aiyah.
or maybe i don't even wanna blog lar okay.
something's wrong with me:/
i think i'm just very scared.
scared of that one fine day,
when goodbyes have to come.
okay maybe i'm just too tired today.
goodnight.
don't think too much.
sleep tight.
1:50 PM
Cheng
okay enough cramming of subjects.
prelims' taking a break,
me too(:
i'm praying hard for it to rain tmr.
then no more workout for us.
please please please.
cos i'm going tmr.
HUR.
it's been raining for the past few days.
ain't that difficult to rain somemore right?
right(:
HAHAHA.
hey mj i've got the song alr.
so don't need to send me(:
thanks anyways.
hurr.
i'l still ask you for songs next time okay.
HAHH
so don't try to get away!
(((((:
6:40 AM
Cheng
HI.
prelims' been killing me so far(:
i shouldn't be blogging:/
so i'l make this a quick one.
If you're lost,
you can look,
And you will find me.
Time after time.
If you fall,
I will catch you,
I will be waiting,
Time after time.
i like that song(:
okay.
my horoscope should stop giving me shocks-of-my-life.
i was getting a heart attack yo-.-
i thought they say horoscopes are never accurate?
still,
i won't think too much((:
friday,
should i go to school?
i don't want the workout thing please-.-
but then again,
it's teacher's day yo.
hmmm.
shoutouts:
dee: HAHA i'm just too glad china came out. PHEW:D i can still remember how our panic attacks almost shot us today. HAHA. we must have looked like idiots!
yingjia: hahhha you know you're so drama your tags are always making me laugh okayy. hahha drama queen! hahha. eh do you know who's anon? cos i think i do(: HURR.
mj: hahh you've to try im me. cos most of the time, i appear off. hehh(: i want the song i want the song! hurr. XIE XIE NI!(:
BYE.
7:45 AM
Cheng
yes so here i am.
today was a studying day.
err history & more history.
OKAY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.
stuck.
hurrrrrrrrrr.
retard came to study(:
i wonder how she can finish 7 chapters of bio.
tiannnnnnn.
i'm so gonna die.
haha.
i've realised history textbook can get interesting sometimes.
HAHAHAA.
aren't you surprised? (:
okay i've seriously ran out of words to say.
but mj!
i want the song!
((((((:
BYE.
11:21 PM
Cheng
anyone has the song soulmate?
text me,
you're greatly appreciated(:
one final last weekend,
prelims,
then holidays.
i want the holidays here right now.
oh wells,
think too far.
emm.
i love my waterbabies.
they are my best company,
while i study.
i have 7 chapters of history,
a whole text of phy,
a whole text of chem,
a whole text of amaths,
2 whole text of emaths
to go.
life is so-oh-wonderful.
i'l be stressed like crazy,
during this whole weekend.
hhah.
i guess it's all down to myself.
& i'm being very,
very,
optimistic that i can finish everything.
HAHHA.
mood's a little down right now.
hurr
problems.
BYE.
1:36 PM
Cheng
what a $%& mood i'm in right now.
i get so fed up with myself mans.
i'm not allowing anything to affect me from concentrating on revision.
and yet this.
RAHH.
i feel so,
2847658257-1-5-651-
and it really doesn't feel good.
nope not at all.
i,
dont,
like,
it.
------ --------- ----------------- -------- ------------ --------- ---------
RAHHH.
:(
BYE.
9:48 AM
Cheng
okay so finally the skin's done whoa i swear it's damn tiring.
i hope the skin looks fine,
after my adjustments.
i don't really agree with the words in white above,
but aiyah,
i'm too tired to do anything else.
& i like the font of those words anyway.
hahha.
lazy nature(:
things with people get weird at times & i've no idea why.
i don't like it,
not even a tiny little bit.
i try to make things right but,
i still am not sure about the reasons behind everything.
please tell me abt it,
people.
i ate today(:
mom was surprised i actually ate ate.
hahh.
bet she was overjoyed.
i think i'm becoming normal once again.
like i've been eating since sunday.
that's improvement,
right?
(:
so school's been ---
today was actually not cold,
for once in my life.
lessons went on,
& nothing but stress accumulates.
prelims is next week & i know how stress would kill me,
just like any other exams.
i,
need,
to,
study.
so stayed back today after english to do my work.
till about five.
i serisouly need to thank grace for everything,
& also for always being there for me.
(: (: (:
hey you,
--------------i wanna lean my head against your arm:(
11:40 AM
Cheng
hi & shopping made me happy today,
yet again (:
yesterday.
met up to study in the afternoon and yes i studied(:
and while waiting at far east this gang of people were telling me i'm tall & all.
hahhah like..
hmmm okay i think i noticed my height?
HAHHH.
anyways it was freezing cold but it's alright.
i had two jackets hurrr.
so studied and studied then walked walked ard a little,
dinner-ed,
made our way to watch fireworks.
it's really pretty(:
it was the leaving part that tired us out.
cos as usual,
the whole of s'pore was there-.-
alrights then squeezed into the car & left.
hurr.
thanks for sending me home.
today.
morning woke up late cos cancelled tuition.
& tmr i've to rush home from school for tuition.
rahh i don't like it mans.
okay anyways.
woke up & first thing i hear from mom is naggy scoldings.
whoa purposely wanna spoil my day yo-.-
okay nvm didn't spoil my mood.
after everything went to the dim sum place in chinatown.
so many people la.
hahh what's with me & crowds?!
can't seem to avoid those.
haha.
then i wanted to puke & didn't wanna eat at all.
(how unusual-.-)
and i felt so bad cos i agreed to dim sum with mom.
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then shopping totally cheered me up(:
mom & i spent so much (ops)
but i think it's worth it.
HAHHHA but i always think it's worth it mans.
how can it possibly not?!
then walked ard for a little cos mom wanted to buy her,
err detergent?
hurr yeah.
it was raining but only for half of the carpark.
mom was being scary.
but it made me laugh.
i don't like it when my hands sweat like crazy.
it's so bad sometimes i feel like there's water dripping.
-.-
11:30 AM
Cheng
i've been blogging lately.
hurr.
school's been (:
but home's been a little ):
stress level up.
i guess it's time:/
intense studying tmr.
i really really need to study yo.
chem mock today killed me like @#$%^*
rahh.
i swear O's sucks.
today!
i forgot to bring my phone along with me at that time,
and i almost died.
dee kept asking me: what's wrong with you cheng?
it made me think.
what's wrong with me?
hmmmmm.
hmmmmmmmmm.
hmmmmmmmmmmm.
take care grace & rest well at home(:
don't be too stressed,
cheng <3 you!
i wonder if my 'excited plan' is of any use. ?
10:24 AM
Cheng
hi & school's been ---
meds aren't really working mans.
i'm not eating much.
i wonder how much more can i lose.
weight wise.
maybe another 5.
then i'l sure to look anorexic.
oh tian.
so that we'l go with the flow. ?
10:38 AM
Cheng
& they got back chinese today.
congrats to you and you (:
you both owe me kay.
HA.
cheer up for you and you (:
it's alright!
be strong girls!
there's always another chance kay?
keep those tears,
you can do it (:
so school went on like ---
i need to,
eat.
seen doctor already.
thanks all of you for everything.
i'm alright don't worry (:
cheng's always strong la.
hahh even w/o food i guess?
hurr (:
anyways meds' gonna make me eat:/
oh tiann.
oh when i went to see the doc,
after explaining my conditions (mostly by mom)
doc: so, are you emotionally disturbed?
cheng: HUH?! err no?
doc: are you sure?
cheng: emm yeahh i guess?
mom: she's stressed laa. her prelims is next week.
cheng: it's the week after next week mom-.-
doc: ohh so it's exam stress?
cheng: maybe? i don't know:/
mom: must be lorr. she like that for one week alr!
doc: (unbelieving eyes) you didn't touch food for a week?!
cheng: whoa noo. erm, first few days no food. but later on, it's just very little.
doc: okayy. you sure there's no emotional problems?
cheng: -.- like?!
doc: well, relationships, friendships, anything you're going through?
cheng: doc, NO-.-
doc: alrightt (:
mom: it's stress.
cheng: MOM -.-"
doc: hahh don't stress her out so much yeah. there's only so much a student can take.
cheng: (silently) HAHHA stress my head-.-
mom: emmmmm.
doc: alrightt let's take a look at your stomach.
(cheng lies down, doc poke poke poke)
doc: pain?
cheng: no.
(repeated abt 5 times)
doc: okay. i'l just get you some meds to open your stomach (:
cheng: huh? open my atomach? HAHAHHHA. okay whateverr.
okay and so on.
so mom was being all nice cos she still think it's exam stress but,
oh wells why not?
(:
hi retard i like that song (:
take care & see the doc soon.
oh yeah & drink LOADS of water yo.
hahh.
cheer up! (:
12:27 PM
Cheng
alright so now's the time that i need someone to talk to.
i don't know how i'm feeling,
and it sucks to not know:/
my stomach's being nicer to me today.
tuition just ended.
my tutor actually asked me what's wrong.
HAHH
bet it's my stomach.
yes yes my stomach.
after #$%^ days i'm still not wanting to eat.
& i've realised all my clothes are damn much looser.
it's good in a way.
i feel very light.
but i wonder if i'l die.
hahh seriously.
& sometimes i wonder what will happen if i really die.
HAHAHHAHHAHHA
like all my friends, family crying & crying.
HAHAHHA
sorry.
kinda imaginary today.
i'm feeling muchh better now,
just to let you know(:
so don't worry.
3:18 PM
Cheng
& it was one of the few times when shopping didn't actually make me happy.
i swear my stomach hate me like siao.
ginny charles please call me back soon.
i need to check if my file's with you laaaa.
idiot.
sunflower is dying.
HAHHA.
mom was being all nice to me today.
i'm sorry i'm so quiet.
i didn't wanna talk:/
shopping actually didn't cheer me up mans.
how surprising.
last night's chat,
reminded me of you.
natural eyeliners.
hurr.
i bought eyeliner just now.
but it ain't natural
:'(
make my day.
8:50 AM
Cheng
erm things went up & down,
but now everything's fine(:
though i'm still confused about the in-betweens,
but if retard says it's fine,
i'll just take it that way then.
haha retard you should be glad that i trust you(x
so there was the handing over this morning,
when the flag was so damned heavy & i kept thinking i'd drop it:/
after that was the concert which was wow-so-totally-interesting
-.-
i tried sleeping 5 times:/
after which mom came to fetch me,
& she made me cry at home.
so i tried eating,
just a tiny little bit,
& realised i could swallow it.
but by the 2nd time i try,
my stomach won't allow me anymore.
mom thinks it's exam stress-.-
wow,
like i'd be damn happy if you could give me some.
exam stress i meant.
then i think i've used too much energy crying,
cos when i sat in front of the com,
i couldn't see anything.
i thought i was going blind?
till i heard my phone's vibration.
thanks man that sms saved my eyes.
then time passed on & it was towning(:
i thought i was late but ,
NO. HAHA.
then tried to ask ppl to join us but no,
apparently they were all busy:/
so we walked & walked.
saw some people.
some unexpected ones that totally shocked me.
then on came jo & tess.
& it was walking around & window shopping.
haha did i mention how much i love window shopping?
guess not:/
anyways,
we were just doing that & i saw,
again,
that nike pair i wanted.
& wow the others COPY me & claim they love it too.
HAHA it's minee please-.-
then time fly & we went to send tess home.
i swear it was FREEZING in the cab.
thanks jo for lending me your bag,
haha it helped!:D
& we were in the cab for years!
haha that's what jo said-.-
so aft that it was my turn.
& ding!
i'm here now(:
have fun to the rest of you(:
retard,
come online soon please i want the songs.
hurr.
bye;
11:50 AM
Cheng
wow & i'm posting again & tmr's prelims.
way to go cheng:/
i've had so little sleep yesterday but i wasn't even tired today(:
isn't that good?
hurr.
i was supposed to go out today luh:/
aiyah.
ginny charles scared me like $^&* today due to nothing HAHHA.
that girl don't make sense-.-
emmm so i'm studying eng now & i'm trying my best to focus.
i keep thinking of what ginny said.
SEE LUH.
it's all her fault:/
my phone bill's going $$$$$$ HAHAHHA but i don't care.
it's not the 1st time anyway(x
hello hello is the whole world studying?
:'(
i need to slp early tonight.
retard are you sleeping?
haha.
i've no idea what to post now.
take care everyone,
the people around me should stop falling sick:(
take your meds people.
don't fall sick,
it's prelims.
bye.
9:56 AM
Cheng
okay so i'm here to update(:
school's been,
school.
prelims is on monday and wow i'm here posting.
:/
so there's the mission yesterday.
i was so cold i wore 3 jackets & my hands were still freezing.
the mission was filled with,
emo talks i guess?
but i found my inner voice.
which will question me every now & then.
khorui,
get that fever down kay?
get well get well.
you've got to fight prelims!
hurr.
& don't worry too much abt that.
in case you are.
just ignore.
it works okay.
call me if you need to(:
woke up with a bad headache.
i thought i fell sick:/
last night,
after msging ms in crime.
i couldn't sleep.
i was thinking of daddy luh.
haiyer.
he didn't call yesterday.
suddenly i miss him like !@#$%%^&*)%$
he should come soon.
i wanna hug him.
HAHA this is so funny.
i feel like hugging my dad.
can't believe i typed that out.
then i wanted to sort things out.
but in the end it's too confusing so i told myself to stop thinking.
but you see,
your brain,
though part of you,
doesn't always listen:/
i want O's over.
then i can think & sort things out.
i'm tired of pushing all those questions away,
when my inner voice asks.
i NEED to get things clear.
oh my tian did i sound emo?
hmmm.
i want a dog.
really really.
those small & white & furry ones.
then when it see me it's tail would shake.
HAHA so cute(:
mummy should stop hating dogs.
just get me one won't do any harm right.
not like it will bite you,
OR dirty the house:///
AIYAH mummy's so totally impossible.
but almost everyone has a dog://////////
i think i should start studying ss today.
oh no next next wed is my O's eng oral.
wish me good luck(:
i really hope i score for the 1st one month.
i need the 2 pts off.
oh &,
i wanna study next week during the long holiday.
anyone wanna study with meeeeeeeeeeee?
haha.
text me(:
i think i need you
1:51 AM